I Thought It Was A Love Story, But You Don’t Wanna Get Involved.

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I thought it was a love story, but you don’t wanna get involved.

I thought it was a love story, but you’re not ready for that.

Me neither.

I would have waited, like a week or two.

But you never try to reach me, no.

You never call me back.

-Soko “I’ll Kill Her”

I find myself with a dilemma on my plate.  I have the boy from Wisconsin, let’s call him B, and a boy here, let’s call him Z.  Both are amazing boys, except Z has stood me up once for a date and I can not yet confirm whether or not he is reliable.  B lives ALL the way in Wisconsin, and a relationship with him would be hard to pursue unless I were to move there, or he to here.  Now, Z is a very intelligent boy, he’s kind, sweet, and most of all caring.  He has a great sense of humor and makes me feel, well let’s just say he gives me butterflies.  As for B, I don’t know yet, for I have not met him, so here’s the problem.  I can go to Wisconsin, meet B and see how that all turns out or I can somehow call off everything with B in pursuit of Z, who said and I quote, “I’ll wait until the train comes back around”.  I don’t know what to do, but I suppose I shall visit B in Wisconsin and see how I’m attracted to him and if all ends horribly, then I shall fall back on Z, if all does not, then I suppose I will be pursuing a long-distance relationship with B, which just might kill me right now, or three months from now, whatever.  I don’t know, whatever may come can come as it will.

Love,

Just Jo Ann

FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!

Marc: Maybe I should call you tonight. I don’t know.
Jo Annimal: I gotta go make a pot of coffee soon.
Jo Annimal: I’ll most likely be on the internet talking to Barry.
Marc: 80% of the time there’s no answer.
Marc: Oh, great, it’s a Barry now.
Jo Annimal: Yes, yes it is.
Marc: Next month, it’ll be Wally, or some shit.
Jo Annimal: xD
Jo Annimal: Wally, uhm, no.
Marc: Women and their pathological co-dependency.
Marc: I don’t understand it.
Jo Annimal: Yeah, well, this one’s actually pretty good.
Marc: Right.
Jo Annimal: Stable job, car, home.
Jo Annimal: Not a douchebag, that’s always a plus.
Marc: That’s what you said about Donnie, and Seth, and so on.
Jo Annimal: No I didn’t.
Jo Annimal: Donnie nor Seth were stable or dependable, and they weren’t responsible adults.
Marc: Uh, yeah, you did.
Marc: They were all better than the one before.
Jo Annimal: Yeah, well, I’m not blinding myself with this one.
Jo Annimal: He actually isn’t bad at all.
Jo Annimal: Except that he lives…idk, 800 miles away. xD
Marc: How long have you known him?
Jo Annimal: Mm, since I was 13.
Marc: Oh, for fuck’s sake.
Marc: Go make your coffee.
Jo Annimal: Don’t be a douche.
Marc: I’m not being a douche.
Jo Annimal: He’s really nice..
Marc: I’m sure he is, but he’s still HUMAN.
Marc: You’ve been fucked over so many times over such a short period of time, romantic relationships should be the LAST fucking thing on your mind.
Marc: But, no, you just keep slitting your own throat over and over again, because this guy is so much better and so much sweeter than the last.
Jo Annimal: I’m just trying to find someone, Marc.
Marc: Take a few minutes and really think about it, how well do you really know anyone?
Marc: You’re only 17!
Jo Annimal: I KNOW BUT STILL!
Marc: If you don’t find your soul mate by the time you turn 40, then be concerned.
Jo Annimal: It’s not the greatest thing in the world to be alone, alright? It’s not the greatest thing in the world to watch your friends be happy with someone else, it’s not.
Marc: Then you should find something else. A hobby or something.
Marc: I hate seeing you do this to yourself all over again.
Jo Annimal: How do you know that this one is going to disappoint me?
Marc: What are the chances THIS one is going to be everyting you’ve wanted?
Jo Annimal: I don’t know..
Marc: How do you know HE will stay with you when the shit really hits the fan?
Jo Annimal: I DONT know, but I’m taking the fucking chance.
Marc: That’s your problem, you’re always investing everything you have in one person without considering the circumstances.
Marc: Eventually, you are going to drive yourself insane doing this.
Marc: Always looking at everything on the surface, and making your call based on that alone.
Marc: And you don’t understand the front guys put up just to get a woman in their pants.
Marc: The charm, the sweetness, 99 times out of 100 it isn’t even real.
Jo Annimal: I know that.
Marc: Stop doing this to yourself, please.
Marc: You did it with me, you did it with Andrew, Donnie, and Seth.

What if he’s right?  I just want someone who I can spend time with, share life with, care about, who cares about me, who  I can POSSIBLY some day love.  My God why do I have to care so much about others’ opinions?   Someone shoot me, this is getting bad.

Just Jo Ann

Just That.