When the moon fell in love with the sun, all was golden in the sky.
All was golden when the day met the night.
When the moon found the sun, he looked like he was barely hanging on, but her eyes saved his life.
In the middle of summer, all was golden in the sky.
All was golden when the day met the night.
January 4th my life improved. Tosha, Seth’s aunt is pretty much just like my family now. She’s as close to me as I am to her and it’s a wonderful relationship we share. She has a daughter, Nohie Eliza-Gale McDaniel, and she is beautiful. She turned one on the fourth. Of course, it being Seth’s niece he was at the party. I was civil, more than civil. We had casual conversation and near the end of the party he asked if I’d like to hang out. I said yes, after consulting Tosha. He said he needed to talk to me about some things.
We went back to his house, which flooded my mind with happy memories and almost brought tears to my eyes. Jesus, just the sound of his five-speed always made my stomach jump into immediate fits of fluttering butterflies when I would stay at Tosha’s and hear him go by. We went to his room and started a movie. We talked about a lot of things. The night he broke up with me the final time, he was drunk and had backslid and had a breakdown and was afraid. I was the longest girlfriend he’s ever had, and the only one he’s actually loved. We spoke about my feelings on the matter, how he hurt me so severely with the things he did. We’re talking every day on the phone now. We are not in a relationship again as of yet. We are taking things slow. He’s matured. He now has a job where he is an iron-worker and brings home nine hundred dollars every two weeks. That is a large improvement from Subway. He’s grown, I can tell just by his demeanor and his mentality has changed. When his mother asks what will happen if he starts to feel the fear of commitment again he says and I quote, “Suck it the fuck up and get over it because I love her and I know I need her.” What he doesn’t know is that I need him just as much. I’ve worked on my clingy nature, and I can even tell I’m getting better about over-smothering and such. We shall see what happens. For the first time in almost half a year, I am happy.
Just Jo Ann.
